AIDO!!!
Hey man, hows it goin? Havent emailed ya in a bit. You got a girl yet? hehehe

Me well, I'm doing the usual. Uni from monday to thursday. Not really doing much there, just studying the language and doing some other random things with some video ideas. Umm, yeah and working as a checkout chick at woolies. hehe, its a shitty job but I get some money from it.
Did you know that Evan moved in with us? hes been up here since like july. Its been pretty fun having him around but, he only just got a job, so like, now on more fun will be had.

Ah now for a mini rant about my love life, cause ya know, it always helps to write these things down
Well, a bit ago me a Lea broke up. If you didnt know. it was like... maybe around the same time evan moved in i think (not that that had anything to do with it, yet... lol. LONG story for when you get back... or another email) and yeah, then for a couple of months I was just flying solo until there was a Japan club (uni club) event on at a mexican restuarant. Met these couple of hot Jap chicks, and yeah talked them a bunch. Got their phone numbers, and yeah invited them around for... a party... cant remember which one. But yeah, anyways, hooked up with Tomoko. We've been going out since then. So for like, a couple of months. And yeah its all good but I'm unsure of my feelings.
You know with jap chicks, they always wanna hear AISHITEIRU. So yeah, I've said it but to be honest, I'm having to convince myself that I mean it. Bad thing1.
Bad thing2 is, last night there was a party cruise (party on a boat at surfers), and well, Tomoko couldn't or didn't wanna come because she had to work at 9am today (saturday). So yeah, her room mate and a couple of friends of hers who are visiting from Japan came along. And well, Saya(the room mate) and I have always got along really well, and I've been raelly attracted to her since I met her pretty much. Last night, I told her I liked her. I mean, yeah there was alcohol involved but thats just dutch courage. I would still feel the same, and just perhaps done nothing about it otherwise.

So yeah to summerise, the problem is, I dont know how I feel about my GF. I like her room mate Saya. Saya has a BF, I've met the guy and he is cool but, there is a whole thing going on between Saya and her BF. Like, they dont know if they are gunna stay together much longer. SO I got no real idea of what to do. I like Tomoko alot, and she is fun and cool, but Saya just grabs more of my attention. ALSO tomoko is 28, I know it is a little older, like 9 years... not that it really bothers me, or maybe it does considering I mention it... AND I dont know how Saya feels about me, cause like, it was hard trying to talk in the night club and stuff last night. Although I think she just prefers friends.

So I'm in a rut. I feel guilty because I am basically using tomo... and that isnt on. i mean, I do care for a lot, but not as much as her for me. So I just think its wrong. I have figured out the meaning of true love. Its when you love and care for someone so much it hurts, and they have the exact same feelings for you. There was a while there where I thought I had experienced that, but not with tomoko. Tomo loves me alot more than I can say I love her... which is terrible. Why do all the people I feel so strongly attracted to always not care so much for me as I do them. I guess thats life.

I wont break it off with tomo til she goes back to japan, because it'll kill her, and she is still really cool to hang out with. I wont do anything with Saya because well... I think it better we're just friends because I dont think she likes me that way, nor do I want to complicate things.. or do i. I guess, come the new year, I'll be on the market again. And doing more work than ever to find someone because I'm apparently the next Japan Club president for 2007 first Sem.